i very pathetic
Samuel told me Jensen and Youjie joined IVP team this year. Last year's chalkday kakis and now they are in teamNUS. On the surface I am quite indifferent, since I am not willing to spare 3 days per week on training, and in fact I feel a bit full of myself cos I know I could enter the team if I wanted to. But actually I feel quite sour somehow.
Weird, why should I feel unhappy over not being the thing that I don't want to be? It's week 3 and I haven't stepped into NUS rock gym at all this semester, and I haven't been climbing regularly at Yishun as well. AND I haven't seen a single A in my exam result slip so far...
Maybe I just want that teamNUS jacket. Maybe I just want to be in the team. Maybe I just want to represent. (come to think of it, I was State representative for another thing before) But I don't like competition.
I was thinking, bra straps reminds me of full body harness.