when bouldering turns me off (a little)

I just don't know why. I wanted to talk about it last week.
I'm getting less and less enthusiastic about bouldering at NUS rock gym every Tuesday. I just don't know why...

Maybe cos people in my clique are doing much better than me? Like I say, I hate comparison, I hate competition, but human beings tend to compare ultimately. The only better thing I can do is I can sit in...

Argh.. haha I don't look like I was AJC climbing team captain right? The climbing shirts I wear seem to be stolen or digged up from landfills right?? I don't seem to be worthy of the equipments that I love so much right?

Must motivation be fueled by achievement? If there is no achievement, does motivation die off? Or even passion... well well.. I can always think of NUS rock gym as the 'free' version of ClimbAsia, but... chillycraps stop bluffing yourself...

Well.. at least I'm not like getting all high and aroused the moment I see a climbing wall..... I used to think I am.... (oh today I skipped dinner for climbing again... )